This past fall, I have been having such a shake in my faith.  I have felt the lowest I have in some time and have been struggling with God’s word.  I have always been a firm believer in karma and that you reap what you sow, but in retrospect and in light of new events, I don’t know if that’s the case.

This past year, I have witnessed someone who is selfish and mean gain something that I have been dying for.  This does not come from envy, truly.  It comes from discerning his character and not understanding how God can allow for such a selfish, egotistical person to gain something so special.  I, know what you’re thinking: who am I to judge? You’re right. I am not anyone to judge, but I am someone who has always believed that good comes to those who do good – that God knows our hearts and will fulfill our dreams as long as we live by His example.  So, when I see someone who cares only for himself and does not live by the Lord gain such a beautiful thing that almost everyone wants, it makes me question Him.

We live in a world where God allows children to get sick and die, potentially good mothers become barren, and natural disasters destroy homes and kill thousands, so why would God waste his energy into allowing karma to come back to one person, right?  I love God and I will always love Him, but as of right now, my faith in him needs some restoring.

 

Ending this on a sour note,

X0, ashley.