I have not even conceived you, and I love you.

 

I dreamt of you all of my life, but never knew until now the significance you have for me.  I used to think all I wanted in life was a husband and family.

That all I needed in life was a partner, a best friend, til death do us part.

But now, as I experience that a man’s love is, in fact, conditional and replaceable, the only love that can never be replaced or disappear is that between a mother and child.

 

I cannot wait to hold you in my body and let my body transform to meet your needs.  I cannot wait for the moment I feel your heart beat from within my body, with occasional beats synchronizing with one of mine.  I cannot wait for us to become one, before you depart my body – as you will always literally be a part of me.

I cannot wait to experience the joys and terrors and serendipity that will be my pregnancy with each and every one of you. To feel the first time you kick, and to be shaken by the fact that I am, truly, carrying my life inside of me – because your lives will become mine.  I cannot wait to experience all of our firsts together and the moment I am lucky enough to hold you in my arms.  I cannot wait to see the creation of life, that which only God and females can do, before my eyes.

Thank you for choosing me to be your mother – it has been and will be the most important title I will ever hold in my life.  Thank you for giving me life when I did not want my own anymore.  Thank you for giving me the opportunity to give the unconditional love I’ve always yearned, but have never gotten – except from my own mother.  Thank you for helping me choose life.

 

I love you.

Your Future Mommy.